I have not kept who I am today from you.  I have shared posts and videos about my PTSD, about my mental health, and about how I live today.  I am going to go down a rabbit hole in this written piece.  Because.....I have to.  Because.....I don't know what else to do.  I can't finish my previous started piece right now because life is SO different than it was when I started it.   My brain doesn't have the capacity to go back in time and remember things correctly right now.  My brain barely has the capacity to get up every day and smile.  I am struggling.  I know you are struggling.  We are all in something bigger, together now.  Our current lives.....COVID-19 Pandemic.  Fear, uncertainty, depression, confusion, and many more horrible words.  I can't fucking breath.   I swear, every other day I have the virus.   It is so much fun being in my head during this time.  Being alone.  As in, the only adult in my house hold.  I have an annoying cough.  Every time I cough, my