February 18th, 2023 My first born died 30 days ago. I can't function correctly. I can take care of my little one....my mom is helping. But Collette is dead. I don't know........anything. Like WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING!? Are you mother fucking serious? Three kids? THREE? Who the fuck is in charge here, and I want to talk to them NOW! How could a world, a universe, a GOD, be SO cruel? I have watched 3 children die...or held them after death, or saw them after death and couldn't touch them. My life is cursed and I am so fucking sorry to my two children left that they were born into this. I can't even fathom what cruel entity would be capable of this. I can't stop crying, I can't stop trying to text her. I CANT anymore. How the fuck am I supposed to? I KNOW I have no choice. I KNOW I am stuck being alive. What do you even do with that? Oh my sweet Collette, I can't do this without you. My first born, my best friend, I can't carry th
A continuation of my story, now, and who I am as THIS Missy the present. I am an artist full time, and own an online boutique. The side of me that is art found this one step in all the work I do very interesting and ... Fun! Come with me on this moment by moment look into the mind of a mother who has buried three children...and we will check out how my art works as we process through every day. .